2 months

Goldie's 2 month checkup:
weight: 12.3 lbs (70%)
height: 22 in (61%)
head: 39.6 cm (85%)


She went to the doctor's yesterday for 3 shots... it was literally the saddest thing ever. She was looking up at me just crying and it kind of made me tear up.

 I have loved learning how to become her mama. I am learning to function with less sleep, and spend my days just staring at goldie and talking to her, and of course, if you haven't seen my instagram, taking pictures of her! She is so dang cute, and has the cutest littler personality.

Goldie loves:

- bath time. She loves to kick her feet and lick to try to taste the soap

- being naked, which includes diaper changes. She cheeses the whole time

- standing up or sitting up... she thinks she's way bigger than she really is.

- talking and smiling, batting eyelashes.. to die for!

- sucking her hands and binki... she always needs something in her mouth.

- her tongue. She has found it, loves sticking it out.

- kisses... If you like slobbery, open-mouth kisses... Goldie gives some good ones!

- holding hands

- car rides

- eating of course.


Goldie doesn't like:

- not being looked at while she's awake. home girl loves attention.

- getting dressed

- sleeping by herself (I know... but I don't mind)

- being swaddled


Now get ready for a picture overload!!

all smiles: one month

I can't believe another year has come and gone... and what a year it has been! So many fun things have happened, but Goldie has by far been the highlight. I can't believe she is now 6 weeks... my goodness she is growing up way too fast. She has so much personality already!

- super smiley. She'll smile so big it shows off her under eye dimple... I have the same one!
- loves to be talked to anything that keeps the attention on her
- sweet personality
- loves to cuddle
- snorts when hungry (it's the cutest thing ever :)
- gets super mad when she isn't fed right when she's hungry
- so expressive and her eyebrows tell a story.
- loves being naked and getting diaper changed
- goes through 10 minute stretching routine every time she wakes up.. it's hilarious
-  desperately trying to find thumb to suck.. but ends up punching herself in the face
- loves getting kisses- she thinks it's so funny
- eating is the best part of her day
- enjoys ca rides
- lifts up head.. so strong!
- loves noise and light
- follows voices and people
- still figuring out that she should be asleep at 3 a.m.

I can't believe I am her mom... she makes my days so much more exciting. Her smile melts my heart and makes sleepless nights totally worth it. She is wrapped around our finger. Time needs to slow down now! I love her so much and feel so blessed to be Goldie's mama.

Goldie Sue Probert

Little Goldie is already over a week old... where does the time go?! Time sure does fly! I wanted to write her birth story while it is still fresh in my mind because it is something I want to remember forever. She really is a miracle.

My due date was November 16 and she really wasn't ready to come. I went to my doctors appointment the next day on a Monday, and I still hadn't progressed any. I was devastated. The doctor told me to come back on Friday and he would check to see if I had progressed. Friday I went to the doctor.... and nothing. He set up my induction date for Monday, November 24, but he wanted me to come in on Sunday so we could start the process because I hadn't had any results on my own. Scott and I headed to the hospital ready and anxious to start the process to meet our little angel. So Sunday night the started me on a medicine called  cervadyl which is supposed to help you dilate quicker. Throughout the whole night I was having contractions that were about 2 minutes long and 1 minute apart. However when they checked me again the next morning, I was still only dilated to a 1. I was a little mad because it felt like my body had been doing so much work.

So Monday morning they started me on pitocin and I continued to have contractions that were consistent. Still no progress. The nurse told me I was now not to have any solid food, so I started the liquid only diet. After a whole morning of no progression and constant contractions I decided to get an epidural. I am terrified of needles so that was pretty scary, but it felt so weird and took away the pain. Yay! They continued the pitocin in higher doses. Still no progression. The doctor then decided to do a cervical balloon, which is also something they do to help dilate more quickly. I had that in for a couple hours and it helped me dilate to a 4! I was so excited I thought for sure we would be meeting our baby soon. A little after they took the balloon out, the doctor came in and broke my water. After multiple times of being checked with no progression, the nurse checked again in the middle of the night and I was at a 5. I couldn't believe that it was only a five. They came in again early in the morning and I was at a 9 I was so surprised and happy. Although a couple hours later they came back to check again and I was still. I was so frustrated, and exhausted. I started to feel helpless. I hadn't eaten in 24 hours and had already been in labor for over a day. I started to have a feeling I needed a C-section, which scared me to death. I have never had major surgery so this feeling gave me chills. When the doctor came in saying that we were going to wait one more hour before we would consider a C-section. By this time my epidural had run out, I was exhausted and starving and I couldn't dream of pushing a baby out. I cried to Scott and said that I really think I need a c-section, but I was so scared. The nurses came in and kept making me switch sides because they were having a problem finding the baby's heartbeat.

My mom noticed that every time I had a contraction, the baby's heartbeat would drop. She finally decided to run and tell the nurse that she didn't like what the monitors were doing. Within minutes nurses and doctors rushed into the room and informed me that I was going to have a c-section. I was shaking I was so nervous. I didn't know what was wrong with the baby, or if she was alright or if I was alright. I am so grateful to have such an incredible husband who kept me positive. Scott chose to watch the c-section, he even brought in a camera to take pictures (which I later made him delete the ones that were too gory, I don't like seeing myself cut open like that..)  I had a doctor who was watching me, and one performing the c-section, then several nurses. They were all amazing. The doctor watching me was on one side of my head, on the other side was Scott. I was awake but couldn't feel anything but pressure, and pushing and pulling. It was so crazy. Scott soon exclaimed "it really is a girl!" I then started panicking because I didn't hear a cry. I kept saying "why isn't she crying?" and "what's wrong?". Then I heard the doctor say that I was losing a lot of blood. (which made me super weak and nauseous) I looked at Scott who had tears in his eyes, and so did I. I heard her quiet little cry and it was so sweet. Goldie Sue Probert was born November 25, 2014 at 9:35 am. She weighed 7 lbs 7 oz and was 19.5 in long after 38 hrs of labor, 8 different nurses, and a c-section later. And she is perfect.

I sent Scott with Goldie to go watch her get bathed and weighed because I was unable to get out of bed for another day. He took more pictures for me. He was incredible throughout the whole process.. I just don't think I can convince him to have any more kids ;) He was so great while I was in bed to change diapers and dress her.... just everything. I love him so much.

After I was moved from the labor and delivery level of the hospital to the mother/baby part, my doctor (Dr. Lamoreaux.. he's awesome!) came in to see the baby. I thought this was so thoughtful of him! He told us the reason Goldie's heart beat would drop every time I had a contraction was because her cord was wrapped around her neck, so when I would contract it would choke her. She was also basically stuck in the birth canal forever. Poor girl had a pretty bad cone head and bad bruising on her head. I was also informed the reason that she was stuck, and I wasn't progressing on my own is because it is basically anatomically impossible for me to give birth naturally. The way my pelvis and spine lay make this difficult because a baby just can't fit. So c-sections from now on for me.

Although the birth went nothing like how I planned, I wouldn't have it any other way. It brought me so close to my husband and strengthen my testimony so much. I really am so blessed to have little Goldie here safe, and healthy. Plus she is so dang cute. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for such a loving family who was so supportive through the whole process, and continue to be supportive. We love you so much Goldie Sue.

still pregnant

Yes, it's true, I'm still pregnant. Technically I'm 39 weeks as of yesterday! I am approaching my due date ever so quickly, and I am more than excited to FINALLY meet this little one! We are ready to roll, the nursery is done, our bags are packed, now we are just waiting for this baby to decide she is ready (please hurry!). As we saw week 38 come and go, I felt a little discouraged because I was born a few weeks early, so I thought there was a strong chance maybe our baby would be too. But she's still cooking! Even though we are so close, it still feels like a dream that the baby really could come anytime, and that she's our baby. It is a really overwhelming feeling to know in a few short days I will be someone's mom. It gets me emotional just thinking about it. Scott is so excited. I'm not worried about him at all. I know he will make the best dad, because really he is such an amazing husband. Well, hopefully next time I write something, I will have pictures of a cute little baby to share. :)

38 weeks large. Also cut off 6 inches of hair to save some time in the mornings!

anxious

Well, this is it. Less than a month until we will meet our little girl. There are so many emotions to take in, and I am unbelievably anxious. I have loved being I pregnant (for the most part) but now I'm to the point where I am so uncomfortable. I don't sleep, have a hard time even finding a comfortable position sitting, and my legs have terrible circulation problem. I also currently have a sinus infection... so it's so fun! Just to further expand on my growing  body, I showed my little sisters AuBrey and KarLei my tummy and this is what they said: AuB, "oh ew" and Karl: "It looks so much bigger without a shirt... doesn't that hurt!?" (when she saw stretch marks) Haha.. it was so funny! With that being said...  I am more than ready to have my baby here to hold. I know that I am going to miss this big belly of mine like crazy, and for selfish reasons. I love having her with me always. Plus she has currently had the hiccups a lot, which is so cute. She also is loving moving all over the place, trying to get comfy I assume. :)

This past weekend we got our nursery all set up, the clothes and blankets are washed and ready to hold our little babe! I started the "fun" doctor's appointments this week. I am dilated to a one, and she is already head down, and I am measuring a little under average. The doc said that everything looks good and if I had my baby today she would most likely be perfectly healthy. Because I am full term!! Next step I should probably get a hospital bag packed, and also a diaper bag put together. I feel completely overwhelmed with gratitude, and also disbelief that this baby is going to be ours. We already love her so much. I love watching Scott touch my tummy and feel her move, he lights up when he feels her rolling around. I can only imagine how great of a dad he will be. I am over-the-moon excited to meet our little angel.

My 36 week belly!

bumpdate: 32 weeks

It is so crazy how close it's getting. I have so many emotions going through my mind as October approaches.. october means only one more month! The more that I think about how close, the more excited I get to meet our daughter. I love thinking of us as a family of three. She has already become such a big part of our family. She seems to already have such a personality. During the day I get head buts, or her little bum pushing up against my tummy... I love it! She moves the most at night though, right when I lay down in bed, she is all over the place. She must be running out of space because I feel her all the way on my sides! She really makes sure she is comfy in there.

Last week we had a bit of a scare. It was really hard, and made us both think about how much our baby really means to us. I think writing it down will help us remember how many blessings and miracles we experience every day. It puts life in perspective and makes us realize God has a plan for each one of us. After a day of not feeling our active daughter move, I started to panic. Luckily we have a heart rate ultrasound thing (I don't know what it's called). I moved it around on my belly, but a usually easy to find heartbeat could not be heard. I kept trying and trying, but I could only hear my own heartbeat. Of course I started to cry, and worry like I never have before. Scott would be home from work in an hour so I decided to wait until he came home to tell him what was going on, I thought maybe I was just being paranoid. So I kept praying that our baby was okay, and desperately trying to find a heartbeat. Scott came home and I was a mess. I could hardly say what I thought had happened because I was so sad. Scott then tried to find her heartbeat but he couldn't find anything. We then called the OBYN office to see if there was anything else we could do, but they had already closed. I asked Scott for a blessing, and he willing accepted. It was the first blessing Scott had given me. I really appreciate him and his priesthood. Right after the blessing we decided that we would try to find a heartbeat again. Scott barely touched my stomach, and the heartbeat was loud, clear, and steady. We both were in tears. We said a prayer after thanking Heavenly Father for answering us so quickly. He was so aware of us. Neither Scott or myself had ever had a prayer like that get answered so directly. As worried and scared as I was, I am so grateful for that experience, because it strengthened my testimony of faith, and prayer. It also brought me so close to my husband, and my Heavenly Father.

29 weeks

Wow. Getting down to the wire! About two more months. She is about 3 lbs and 17 1/2 in long. I had a doctor's appointment this morning and it went really well. It was just another appointment where the doctor checked the heartbeat of the baby, and got my weight, and blood pressure. Am I the only one that freaks out when I see my weight get heavier and heavier... then think.. am I ever going to fit in my old jeans again? Haha oh well.. comes with the job right?
It was good to hear the little one's heartbeat is still strong, and I also passed my glucose test! YAY. Also, why can't they show me our baby every appointment!?  Anyways....

We've gone throughout the whole pregnancy with one girl's name in mind.. a name we love so, so much... but now we have another one that we love just as much. What to do!? I guess we will decide once we see our little girl. (I also keep getting a feeling we will have a surprise boy haha) Ahhh!

I went into pregnancy saying... I don't want to gain a lot of weight... and I definitely don't want stretch marks. Now I have both of those things, but it really doesn't matter. When I really think of what I'm getting out of this is so much greater than getting back to my "ideal" weight. The closer we get to meeting this little girl, I can't contain myself. She has been my buddy for almost seven months, I just can't wait to meet her. I love the kicks I feel... she's a strong little lady. It is so nuts how you can look down and your tummy just moves.. It's awesome and I love it so much!

My goodness I am excited. I am also so overwhelmed with gratitude, for my Heavenly Father, family, friends, and especially my sweet husband Scottie. He has been more than amazing with putting up with my whining, and rubbing my feet/back, or holding my hair... haha I love you so much babe! I can't wait to be a mom!