anxious

Well, this is it. Less than a month until we will meet our little girl. There are so many emotions to take in, and I am unbelievably anxious. I have loved being I pregnant (for the most part) but now I'm to the point where I am so uncomfortable. I don't sleep, have a hard time even finding a comfortable position sitting, and my legs have terrible circulation problem. I also currently have a sinus infection... so it's so fun! Just to further expand on my growing  body, I showed my little sisters AuBrey and KarLei my tummy and this is what they said: AuB, "oh ew" and Karl: "It looks so much bigger without a shirt... doesn't that hurt!?" (when she saw stretch marks) Haha.. it was so funny! With that being said...  I am more than ready to have my baby here to hold. I know that I am going to miss this big belly of mine like crazy, and for selfish reasons. I love having her with me always. Plus she has currently had the hiccups a lot, which is so cute. She also is loving moving all over the place, trying to get comfy I assume. :)

This past weekend we got our nursery all set up, the clothes and blankets are washed and ready to hold our little babe! I started the "fun" doctor's appointments this week. I am dilated to a one, and she is already head down, and I am measuring a little under average. The doc said that everything looks good and if I had my baby today she would most likely be perfectly healthy. Because I am full term!! Next step I should probably get a hospital bag packed, and also a diaper bag put together. I feel completely overwhelmed with gratitude, and also disbelief that this baby is going to be ours. We already love her so much. I love watching Scott touch my tummy and feel her move, he lights up when he feels her rolling around. I can only imagine how great of a dad he will be. I am over-the-moon excited to meet our little angel.

My 36 week belly!

bumpdate: 32 weeks

It is so crazy how close it's getting. I have so many emotions going through my mind as October approaches.. october means only one more month! The more that I think about how close, the more excited I get to meet our daughter. I love thinking of us as a family of three. She has already become such a big part of our family. She seems to already have such a personality. During the day I get head buts, or her little bum pushing up against my tummy... I love it! She moves the most at night though, right when I lay down in bed, she is all over the place. She must be running out of space because I feel her all the way on my sides! She really makes sure she is comfy in there.

Last week we had a bit of a scare. It was really hard, and made us both think about how much our baby really means to us. I think writing it down will help us remember how many blessings and miracles we experience every day. It puts life in perspective and makes us realize God has a plan for each one of us. After a day of not feeling our active daughter move, I started to panic. Luckily we have a heart rate ultrasound thing (I don't know what it's called). I moved it around on my belly, but a usually easy to find heartbeat could not be heard. I kept trying and trying, but I could only hear my own heartbeat. Of course I started to cry, and worry like I never have before. Scott would be home from work in an hour so I decided to wait until he came home to tell him what was going on, I thought maybe I was just being paranoid. So I kept praying that our baby was okay, and desperately trying to find a heartbeat. Scott came home and I was a mess. I could hardly say what I thought had happened because I was so sad. Scott then tried to find her heartbeat but he couldn't find anything. We then called the OBYN office to see if there was anything else we could do, but they had already closed. I asked Scott for a blessing, and he willing accepted. It was the first blessing Scott had given me. I really appreciate him and his priesthood. Right after the blessing we decided that we would try to find a heartbeat again. Scott barely touched my stomach, and the heartbeat was loud, clear, and steady. We both were in tears. We said a prayer after thanking Heavenly Father for answering us so quickly. He was so aware of us. Neither Scott or myself had ever had a prayer like that get answered so directly. As worried and scared as I was, I am so grateful for that experience, because it strengthened my testimony of faith, and prayer. It also brought me so close to my husband, and my Heavenly Father.

29 weeks

Wow. Getting down to the wire! About two more months. She is about 3 lbs and 17 1/2 in long. I had a doctor's appointment this morning and it went really well. It was just another appointment where the doctor checked the heartbeat of the baby, and got my weight, and blood pressure. Am I the only one that freaks out when I see my weight get heavier and heavier... then think.. am I ever going to fit in my old jeans again? Haha oh well.. comes with the job right?
It was good to hear the little one's heartbeat is still strong, and I also passed my glucose test! YAY. Also, why can't they show me our baby every appointment!?  Anyways....

We've gone throughout the whole pregnancy with one girl's name in mind.. a name we love so, so much... but now we have another one that we love just as much. What to do!? I guess we will decide once we see our little girl. (I also keep getting a feeling we will have a surprise boy haha) Ahhh!

I went into pregnancy saying... I don't want to gain a lot of weight... and I definitely don't want stretch marks. Now I have both of those things, but it really doesn't matter. When I really think of what I'm getting out of this is so much greater than getting back to my "ideal" weight. The closer we get to meeting this little girl, I can't contain myself. She has been my buddy for almost seven months, I just can't wait to meet her. I love the kicks I feel... she's a strong little lady. It is so nuts how you can look down and your tummy just moves.. It's awesome and I love it so much!

My goodness I am excited. I am also so overwhelmed with gratitude, for my Heavenly Father, family, friends, and especially my sweet husband Scottie. He has been more than amazing with putting up with my whining, and rubbing my feet/back, or holding my hair... haha I love you so much babe! I can't wait to be a mom!

chicago

A couple weeks ago we got the opportunity to visit Chicago! It was such a blast. We went with our best buds Izzy and Eric.

This is what Chicago consisted of:

-Eric is a huge cubs fan so we had to visit Wrigley field.. twice! 

-We near mastered the transportation system. The L train and buses.

-We went to the pier and went on a giant spider infested ferris wheel. Eric saved our lives by killing the giant black widow in our little cart. 

-Of course we did some shopping on the million dollar mile. The nike store was heaven.

-We ate lots of good food (pizza, hot dogs, cake shakes, doughnut ice cream sandwich...aka pregnant lady's paradise!)

-We visited the bean, so cool! 

The people were so nice! Every time we said we were from Utah we would either get, "how many wives do you have?", or "of course, you're friendly and pregnant." So yeah... it was way funny. We loved this trip, and the memories we made! It was the last big trip with just the two of us. Thanks Izzy and Eric for inviting us!

third trimester

YAY! I made it to the first trimester! We are getting so close to meeting our little girl... I can't wait! I had a doctor's appointment a couple weeks ago where I did the glucose test. Yes, it was disgusting.. that was the worst orange soda I have ever tasted! The appointment involves getting your blood drawn again.. I'm still not quite used to it, I struggled this time! They also weighed me and took my blood pressure.. it is hard to see the numbers go up, but hey I have another person on the scale with me right?? We got to hear the little one's heartbeat again and she seems to be doing great. My cravings now are smoothies, frozen yogurt, or soft serve Macey's ice cream....yum! My tummy is definitely growing but I don't feel gigantic yet. Although right along my ribs falls asleep all the time, that area just goes numb and it's so weird! I'm to the point where I really can't remember what it was like to be not pregnant.

Last  weekend my mom and sisters, and Aunt Krissy threw me a shower for the Monson side, and it was so much fun! It got me really excited for a girl. They really spoiled me! I am so thankful for them!

As we get closer and closer to our baby coming, I find myself thinking about what she'll look like. Scott and I are quite different when it comes to features. He's brown eyes, brown hair, and really tan skin (like some people think he's a different race). Then I have lighter eyes, and blonde hair... So I really don't know what we will get! So I have loved looking through baby pictures so I can just see the different combos :) His eyes are the cutest!

I am so happy and grateful to my Heavenly Father. Pregnancy is really a miracle, and I feel incredibly  blessed to be able to become a mom.

bear lake & denver

We had our Beck Family Reunion in Bear Lake this year over the weekend of the 24th of July. It was so much fun to see all of the Becks. These family reunions are always so great, and I look forward to them each year.

We got to go to a giant cave and do some exploring. I believe we hiked 880 steps... I learned my pregnant  self doesn't have quite as good of balance, so I was clinging to Scott most the time. The cave was amazing! We were all on the look out for bats, but luckily we didn't see any.

My mom jumps at any chance of holding a baby. 

My Aunt Kassie organized some service projects as well that we did in our down time. Last September she gave birth to the cutest little boy ever, Crew, and he has down syndrome. So we made blankets, stuffed animals, hats, and little activity bags for kids who are in the hospital for long periods of time. It was a lot of fun to do all together. We also got to go to the funny play Juanito Bandito... it was hilarious, and we loved it!

We also got to spend time at the lake. There was a water trampoline, paddle boards, paddle boats, floaties, a canoe, and sand toys. The little ones were in heaven! I wish I would have taken more pictures! 

loving the water!

And if you go to Bear Lake... you have to get a raspberry shake!!

This past weekend I took a girls' trip with my mom, my baby sister KarLei and my Aunt Kristen. KarLei had a soccer tournament in Denver, so it was an 8 hour road trip. Such a beautiful drive. I was able to go because Scott was on a business trip in San Jose that same weekend.. so I didn't want to be alone! The trip consisted of eating and soccer, as do most of our trips, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I loved watching Karl play, it made me miss soccer so much. Her team ended up winning the tournament! Way cool... her team's third tournament in a row (including state cup)... I know I'm such a proud sister, she is just so stinkin' cute!

21 weeks

It's official... We are having a girl!!! We technically found this out at 14 weeks, but found out again on Monday!

Almost everyone we talked to thought our baby would be a boy. And my family was eager to add more boys into our family. So I was ready for baseball and cars, but to our surprise there was something else in store for us!

At 14 weeks our sister-in-law Paige, and her mom Julia, who is an extremely talented nurse in labor and delivery, took us to the hospital for an ultra sound. She explained that it is early, and we may not be able to see for sure, but we were excited to see our baby again.

Julia and Paige you are both seriously awesome! Scott and I are definitely needed your help. I couldn't figure out where the baby's head was until someone pointed it out. Our baby was for sure showing off for us! She would stretch their legs and arms all the way out, then curl back up, and spin around. The baby would bring her little hands (which you could see every finger, cute!) up to her face, and cross her feet. Our baby is so active!! (Maybe that's why I've been so sick) Julia gave us so many views of our little one. On one of the views our baby looked right at us, and you could see the cute little face, and eye sockets. Another view was a bum view, and a frontal, so you could check for a male part. Our baby was making this easy because she moved around sooooo much!

Seeing our little girl in the ultra sound was amazing. You could see every little detail. Her spine, and bones, those long kicking legs (we got a soccer player on our hands ;) ), every finger and toe, her heart beating, everything was perfect.

We decided to do a reveal party for both sides of our families. We got two cow pinatas, and filled them with pink candies and balloons, so our nieces and nephews, and my little siblings, could break them open to find out. It was so fun to see everyone's reactions!

When we went to the doctor again, at 21 weeks on Monday. Scott still had some doubts that the baby really was a girl, but within seconds the ultrasound tech was able to tell that the baby was definitely a little girl. We were so eager to see how much the little baby had grown. She had gotten so big! She seemed a little cramped in my tummy! She was sleeping like the entire ultrasound while sucking her little thumb. It was so cute. The ultrasound tech took all sorts of measurements, checked her little heart, and heartbeat, and counted knuckles. It was amazing. To get better shots of her face with her fingers out of her mouth the tech asked me to get up and walk around and bounce to try to wake the baby up, but we had no luck. She's a sound sleeper just like her mom!

I mean look at that little nose, and those lips!

 It makes me emotional to think that I have a little girl growing, and she is a little bit of me, and a little bit of Scott, and she is perfect. We both love her so much already, and are so grateful to our Heavenly Father for allowing us to take care of one of his precious little daughters.